woke up feeling loved

had stomach cramp in my sleep last night.
so painful that it woke me up at 3am.
i went toilet, ,drank water, took medicine,
but the pain did not ease.
so i woke him.
he gently stroke my hair and cheek while i cry.
slowly, i slept.

woke up with him next to me greeting me morning.
woke up with him asking me if my stomach still ache.
woke up feeling loved. ♥

Budget 2010

PTPTN loan waived for 1st class Hons students

G asked me to retake all my non-first class subjects,

take a year or two,

to get that first class honors,

it would worth RM33k.

but frankly, HELP B.Psych first class is definitely not easy,

3.75 as first class benchmark with its already strict standards.

sigh~

Service Tax on Credit Cards

Gov wanna impose RM50 on primary credit card & RM25 on supplementary credit card.

Not that i use mine...

but still...

*me no like he wanna cancel my card*

anyhow, we shall wait for the bank to react first...

So, conclusion:

I am not benefiting from the Budget!

*binjui*

.

aiyok~ eyes spasm pulak!

wanted to create this,

but dunno how,

so i just use gickr.com

cute hor?

i was upset yesterday

first, the therapist issue,

then didn't do well in assessment.

feel so stupid in front of my idol.

and frustrated at being incompetent.

then X told me that Y badmouth me.

i know i should not say all this

n i have been trying hard not to all this while.

but i was indeed forced to be with you.

I DID NOT WANT YOU in the first place

and you bring me a LOT of inconvenience.

and you show me that social-loafing attitude.

kept saying "anything also can"

halo?! i'm not asking for your 'permission',

i'm asking you to participate, to contribute ideas!

are you cows?

want me to drag your nose and feed you grass izit?

then someone shouted at me.

i was pissed off

i shut up because i have no energy to shout back

i kinda like you too.

so i don't want to start another yy-being-arrogant fight.

even now i kinda forget what issue was that.

i sent an email to the center, cc-ing to the manager,

conveying my dissatisfaction in the way we learnt in conflict resolution class.

see, i'm putting what i learnt into practice.

i sent an email to the people,

hoping those two realize the underlying message:

You are social-loafing & I am against that.

多少人？

source: forwarded email

You could have called!

My intern-counsellor called and said she is too busy,
so she'll scheduled another therapist for me on the same day, same time.

Fine, we haven't started any sessions anyway.
i threw away the thoughts that "my therapist doesn't want me".

Today, i went for my first session with a unknown intern-therapist,
to find out that there is no any sessions/therapist scheduled for me!!!
OK, so now, i am forgotten and abandoned.

Do you realise that it actually take come courage to go for counseling and confront my issues?
Can you handle me with more care?

You could have at least called to say you failed to make an arrangement!

quick one~

visited a learning disabilities intervention center

KidsGrow is very good.

of coz fees lagi cantik,

i bluntly ask the pay for a fresh grad program consultant

(which my degree is qualified for).

turn out the pay is very tak cantik.

i have a LOT LOT LOT assignments to do.

1. resume writing due tomorrow
2. psycholegal movie review due this friday
3. mid-term test this friday
4. serial killer assignment assessment next Monday
5. laliladida~

and so he forbid me from blogging until i finish my assignments/readings etc.

so, bye bye~

p/s: i saw a Hummer car today!!! I even took photo next to it...kakakaka...btw, the car plate is NCE, Negeri Sembilan people!!!

it's raining

i like rainy days...

it felt like it is cleansing my soul & mind

it felt peaceful.

frustrated at:

overly dependent people who expects everything to be planned nicely for them

im not your leader. even more your servant!

don't you try to social-loaf, i'll get you a zero if you want it that badly.

the supervisor who emailed at 10am to set appointment at 11.30am.

do u expect me, a low SES student carrying a blackberry around me all the time, reading emails like it is sms?!

every behavior has meaning and serves a purpose

Masks reveal what they intended to conceal.

the very thing people do to keep themselves hidden tell us about who they are, what they fear, what is painful & what they desire.

(Corey, Corey, & Corey, 2010)